I met this guy in my (currently) out of town convention who is from the UK. He seemed very nice and approached me first, which I couldn’t believe. He’s way older than me like 8-10 years, and he wasn’t what you would call hot. Yet, he had something I liked, whcih I couldn’t put my finger on. When he talks to me I feel like I’m talking to someone my age. He...
For Valentine’s Day, my friends and I decided a movie night and dinner would be enough to celebrate it. Most of us are single others have coupled up with each other. We watched a typical love story, but it wasn’t that bad. The movie theater we went to was sort of pricey, but the experience was worth it.The seats have these wonderful cushions and larger space, and the bathrooms...
I really dislike it when my straight friends (who don’t know I like guys) coax me into going to the steam room after a workout. It’s not like I’m sexually attracted to my friends, but if I see a guy there i like, I might just pop a boner and I really don’t wanna look like a perv. Plus, these friends of mine are connected to my parents and once the family finds...
I’ve been relying on weights for most of my workouts, but I haven’t really felt the same rush that cardio gives me. I ought to start jogging again or play some sports
New Tumblr Posting Method
What is with the new text post design? Mine automatically scrolls up when writing more than 5 lines. Am I the only one experiencing this? Or is this tumblr’s way of keeping it short? lol Oh wait lol. it’s fixed now.
I think I’m getting the hang of things around here. I just hope I don’t have another lazy streak.
Leaving a Mark
The black eye is gone..sort of… Some of the dark shading is still there. Looks like the bruise left a mark. I’m hoping that I’m not gonna stay like that any longer.
Big Black Eye
It’s so sensitive. It feels like I’m smiling even though I’m not. Can’t really see all that much. I wanna browse the internet. Ugh. Gonna go back to rest.
So, I visited one of those gated communities ‘cause a friend lived there and we had stuff to do. For some rest, we went to the community park and the first thing I noticed were the guys playing basketball shirtless. Some had sleeveless shirts on, but because it was light colored and they were wet with sweat it stuck to their bodies. These guys looked so perfectly sculpted. I almost drooled...
Another New Year, Another Time of Uncertainty
The passing of the old year to the new year did not feel as special as it did as a child. For once as I was younger, I invited the new year, ready to throw away the old one. For the present time, however, I’m afraid of venturing into a new year since I’m afraid of throwing away the year where I wanted to do more. Unfortunately, time doesn’t work the way you would want it....
Highlights of my month. 1. ‘Survived’ the Mayan Apocalypse 2. Gained 5 pounds. (worth it) 3. Got hit in the groin by a hard snowball. 4. Got flirted with by some guys and girls. 5. Starred in a Christmas play. 6. Ran ‘til my thighs hurt and fall asleep due to exhaustion. 7. Visited a Cultural Garden. 8. Watched a Christmas Light Show. 9. Visited a temple. 10. Got...
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So I have three options i could choose: 1. Quit now, work at family business, and live a life with lies. 2. Stay at job, suck at it, be sad, and live a life with lies. 3. Quit job, search for other companies, and live a secret life. I don’t want to leave my family so telling them all about me would probably shock them and disown me, so a life of truth isn’t in the options. If I...
I wanted to keep on posting on what I do and experience. But I’m so lazy to write it all *sigh*. Gotta stop being lazy.
Not doing that again.
So, I thought there was this girl that was checking me out at a bar I was at. I was with my friends at that time so they were kinda pushing me to talk to her. I did. Big mistake. Turns out it was my friend she was looking at. I’m kinda laughing at it now. But I was seriously embarrassed and my friends even added to that by laughing out loud. I shouldn’t listen to peer pressure lol.
End of Days 2,3,4,5 Whatever
So After Day 2, I got praised cause I actually did something right at work without hardly any corrections. Fuck Yeah!!! Went on for a few drinks with some of my coworkers after work. Didn’t get really drunk, but still got a headache the next day. Days 3-? (I wasn’t really counting when I first started) was kinda erratic. It turned from good to bad then to good then to bad. Anyway,...
Days have been like a roller coaster. It’s confusing.
I have one success story today. And it’s my work. I actually did something right!
End of Day 1
Okay, so today was actually pretty bad. Bad start. Bad ending. Oddly enough, as I was going home, I became somewhat relaxed. Is it cause I vented earlier? The bus ride was still bad. I was very lonely cause there was hardly any people riding the bus home. Then there was this couple that just had to let everyone know that they’re sweet to each other. :\ I’m usually in a state of...
Not Strong Enough
I’ve always thought I was a weak-hearted person, but not as weak as I’ve felt since last week. Two emotional breakdowns each with its own aftershocks. I’ve never been so ashamed of myself. Good thing I wasn’t at field work. One of my co-workers actually saw me and consoled me. After all that, my journey on sexuality felt like it was a non-priority or irrelevant for that...
In the Middle
Earlier today, I just had to pee somewhere and good thing there was this rest stop on the way. There weren’t much people stopping by at that time, but it was a place with a small restaurant. I didn’t really pay attention cause I rushed towards the restroom. It was kinda small, only one toilet and a small urinal trough. While I was walking towards the urinal one guy just got there...
God, I suck at my job.
And I can’t stop worrying about it even at 12:00 am every night.
Just this last weekend, I went to a two-day party with friends I met through college. I was hesitant at first because I know they’re gonna be poking at my life and other personal stuff, which I’m still not comfortable with doing. But, once I was there, it’s like I could go on for a week. Plus, I wasn’t really the target of attention. Someone with more intriguing life...
The past week was tiresome with me rushing about with projects and other stuff. With all the calculations and technical jargon everything feels like it’s all data. I know I’m new to work, but I already feel like taking a break, and it’s not even the hard part yet. My senior co-workers have even more projects to handle and I don’t how they even have time to go to bars or the...
The other day, I took the bus to and from work. On my way home, the bus took a route where it stopped by a mall. The bus got filled up when it got there, and I had to give up a seat to a senior citizen (cause I was near the front). I stood up and went to the wider area, but because of the large crowd, it felt..well, crowded. As the bus started to move, the journey home seemed to be the typical...
Last Friday morning, I went for a jog out in the local park. I was really tired, but happy. It’s like my body got a big stretch out of sitting in the office for days. When I sat down in a bench to rest, I noticed I got looks from some other joggers passing by. I even got some winks from both guys and women.I just smiled and waved like the idiot I was. Then, an old couple finally pointed out...
Work was so hectic the past few days that I could only remember the reports I did and I don’t think anything relevant to my blog happened when I was driving. I saw a car wreck in a mall though - most interesting thing I could remember. I think I’m destined to be alone for the rest of my life…[[MORE]] Before 22, I should have at least tried to have a relationship - girl or boy,...
Visiting my friend
I took the car today. Tempted to take the bus, but since I was gonna visit a friend, it was more convenient to drive instead of being a passenger. Unlike taking the bus, driving the car is somewhat boring. I mean compared to what I’ve experienced whenever I rode the bus, the car was pretty event-less. Anyway, I visited my friend, Toshi. When he answered the door, he was wearing just...
I feel so incompetent right now that I wish I had...
Too bad this is real life.
Exercising is a really good way to start the day, which is then followed by a good cup of tea. Seriously, I can’t get enough of the stuff. But whenever I dunk the teabag, I tend to chuckle cause it reminds me of the time I learned about teabagging. I had a part time job when I was in college. It wasn’t a big restaurant. More like a small, cozy one. A mom and her two kids ordered along...
I am addicted to Tea.
The Idle Mind
Stuck in the house cause of this cold, headache, fever, etc. I couldn’t even concentrate on reading a book. I hate this cause I’m idle, and when I’m idle I tend to remember. I really don’t like looking back at my memories. So, while I was laying on bed, I remembered the first guy that made me realize that I could also like some guys. He was a close friend in college at my...
My family isn’t really approving of me having some sort of gay lifestyle. While they are okay with others having it, they’re not so fond of me having such a lifestyle. They don’t know about my bi curiosity, and everyday I just keep getting more interested. I don’t know if I should allow myself to explore any more. I’m kind of torn between responsibilities and lust....
Slap on the face
Alright, the bus rides are getting more fun, but getting weirder as well. The bus I rode was kinda full with some people standing. I was sitting in a seat that faces front - an aisle seat. There was this buff, slim guy that was standing near me and he was wearing these tight jeans that really accentuated his ass. Luckily he was standing beside me and my shoulder was bumping into his ass. But,...
Sleeping on my shoulder
This is another bus experience lol. On my way home I was already tired and sleepy and I just wanted to stretch my legs on my bed and call it a night. Unfortunately, not everyone can wait ‘til they’re back home. The guy beside me was struggling to keep awake and his head kept landing on my shoulder. I wasn’t really into the guy so I gently shoved him away, but his head kept...
Another mishap during travel
So again, I was taking the bus. The traffic was extremely sloooow and I was shocked that it was in the middle of the highway!!!! Apparently, there were some car accidents where no one was hurt bad but the way the cars stopped kinda blocked most of the path. The bad part was that I had to pee. I had to drop by the mall on the way. Oddly enough, even if I had to pee bad, once I was at the urinal,...
Another Bus Ride
So, after work, I still used the bus to go home. This time, though, I saw a hot girl. I know this is my blog for my bicuriousity, but it’s the only exciting thing that’s happened this afternoon. lol She seemed kind of a snob though, but maybe that was just the structure of her eyes.
I find taking the bus to work these past few days wasn’t all that bad. I mean if I wanted to go somewhere after work it would have been more convenient for me to have taken my car today, but since my only destination was work and home, the bus was an easy choice. Plus, I get to save up on gas money, and finally, get a chance to be just a passenger again. Sometimes, I see handsome guys...
I really need to express the hidden side of myself so I’m setting up this blog. Nice so far. Had a tumblr blog before, but never really used it. Then, today, I felt like I need to let out some stuff and maybe look up internet cats. lol